I will not be shaken...

Well, I wish I had better news..but unfortunately I don't. My blood pregnancy test was negative...meaning I am no longer pregnant. It turns out you can feel pregnant and have every sign and symptom of pregnancy and not bleed or experience any sort of cause for concern and the reason is that the progesterone you have to take when you're an IVF patient, tricks your body (and thus, your mind) into thinking you're pregnant...because it literally makes you feel pregnant..and it stops (some people..me being one)  from bleeding. So...here I thought for sure I was pregnant...and I was for a time (I'll never know for sure how long it lasted) but unfortunately this is what you'd call a miscarriage..and once I go off my progesterone I suppose I will get to feel the full effects of that.  It's true that most people are unsuccessful on their first round of IVF...but I kind of thought we'd be the exception (because who doesn't hope for that)...but unfortunately we are not the exception..we're part of that majority of unsuccessful first timers. Obviously this is devastating..but we are doing ok. I have realized just how much I have to be thankful for. I have 25 embryos that I can try again with which is not the case for many people in my position. I also have amazing friends and family and students and colleagues and numerous other things that are absolutely awesome....I have an amazing life. God has richly blessed me. I will not be shaken by this! The Lord will uphold me with his righteous right hand!  I know I can move forward with this.
I thank you for your prayers and I assure you this is not the end of our journey. IVF can work and I don't give up that easily.

Continue to lift us up in your prayers as you feel lead,

Thanks.

Love and Blessings,

Jen