Hey, Clomid. You SUCK!

For all of you who are wondering how we arrived at the place in our life where we now are considering IVF....last year I was sent to Dr. M, who is a G.P. area specialist. He put me on a drug known as Clomid. This blog post is a venting of my feelings towards Clomid (which did not work for me). I obviously acknowledge that any difficulties I encounter are 150% worth it because they are all part of a journey to get me a baby. This is a bit about what Clomid is and what it was like for me when I took it...nothing more!
What Clomid is...well, it is a fertility medication that is given in order to help a woman to ovulate and/or release more eggs. It didn't work for me...even at the extreme dosage I was on at 200mg. What it did do, and what it does do to many though is very unpleasant.
Now, we all know what PMS is. We all know that it sucks. Bloating, cramping, feeling tired...yuck..the whole things blows. Well take PMS and multiply it by 100 and that is what Clomid does to you. You are tired, you feel like you are the size of a whale, you feel nauseous, your an emotional wreck (which you really needed help with because you're already on this crap because you can't get pregnant) you feel like you might punch someone at any given second. It's a lot of fun, but hey...if it gets you to ovulate and helps you make a baby...it is SOOOOO worth it!!! Now, you can pretend, like I did, or really try to convince yourself that you are having no side effects...but once you stop taking it, it is then that you realize just how much it screwed you up. Once I stopped taking Clomid my cycles were extremely messed up. Take the most recent one. Get a period that lasts over a week, oh and then why not have another one a week later just for fun. Bleh! I miss the days that they were only 3 days long and the worst part was the cramps...
Obviously I am no longer taking Clomid. I did not ovulate on Clomid at all. Now I will emphasize again that I would try anything to get pregnant regardless of the side-effects. I am not complaining about the side effects...I'm honestly expressing how it worked for me and made me feel. I am also letting you all know that just because you take fertility meds does not mean you will ovulate and that I did not ovulate...so I did not get pregnant while on it, so in the end it was just another part of my journey that has lead me to IVF.
Right now I am currently waiting to see a specialist in Calgary July 21/22 about IVF and once we have done that we will, at some point, be going to Victoria to receive treatment.
Anyways, this is me rambling on.
We're continuing to save all our pennies and send up our prayers and one day we'll make it to Victoria and hopefully that will be where we conceive the child of our dreams.
Until then you get to read my ramblings and rants and all that jazz

Thanks for your love and support!

Jen