Well it wasn't the best news...but it wasn't the worst either. I'm thankful for a clinic that is straight up with me and says "we don't want you to come back until things are just right!" Thank goodness! I know Rome wasn't built in a day so I don't expect the perfect conditions for baby growing to just develop in a jiffy either. I did just have a D&C less than a month ago!! So..here we go again...another period to induce and then another try to get just the right conditions. Doctor H will be taking a slightly different approach this time..as I had to take an injectable called Suprefact that last couple of times..and this time I'm just going to be taking the Estrace, which is an estrogen pill. Sounds like they are taking a "slow and steady/gentler" approach. I'm totally fine with all of this too. I just want the perfect conditions so I can go back and know in my heart of hearts that everything possible has been done to insure that I get pregnant and stay pregnant this time. Also, I'm pretty thankful I didn't have to leave to Victoria right this very second because my very best friend in the whole world is having a baby and I would definitely not want to miss that! Not to mention some very close friends who just had a baby earlier this week and I'm dying to meet that little one as well. Seems it's just not exactly the right moment right now, and that's ok. God is guiding the way and He will insure that everything works out as it should according to His plan.
Thanks again for all your love and support and prayers. I will keep you posted as I know more. Right now we just wait for the next cycle to start!
Love you all,
Jen
Thursday, 19 July 2012
Update...
Hey all! This is just a quick little post. Most of you think I'm in Victoria...since it's the 19th. Actually I'm not. I'm still in G.P. At my ultrasound on July 12th my uterine lining was measuring at 6-7mm which was too thin, as it needs to be over 8mm before I can start my progesterone to get me ready to go back. Also (ironically enough) my progesterone levels were elevated, and that can (in exact words) "advance the endometrium and decrease the chances of a successful implantation." So...waiting on just the right conditions, and you know what...that's ok!! I don't want to rush anything. I'm thankful for time off that allows me to be flexible and wait for the perfect conditions. So, today I have more bloodwork and another ultrasound and I am hoping for good news, but, even if it's not time right now...it will be eventually! So thanks for all your heartfelt prayers and well wishes! I cherish them...just thought I'd let you all know that I'm sort of in "waiting" at the moment...but will update again when we find out more!
Thanks again for your prayers!
Love you all and God Bless!
Jen
Thanks again for your prayers!
Love you all and God Bless!
Jen
Tuesday, 3 July 2012
In case you were wondering...
Hey all!
So it has been over a month since my last post came bearing the terrible news. You may be wondering what's going on with us as of lately.
Well, I said we weren't going to give up...and I meant it!!!
After our unfortunate news Dr. Hudson recommended taking at least a month off to let my body recover. He also recommended I have what is known as a D & C performed. That stands for Dilation and Curettage. For those of you who do not know what a D & C is, it is a surgical procedure in which the doctor dilates the cervix and, using an instrument known as a curette, scrapes the lining of the uterus and removes tissue. It is a procedure that is usually done after miscarriages, but the real reason I had to have this done is because of my PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome). You see because of my PCOS I do not get periods. With no period comes a build up of the uterine lining. If you don't have a period to remove that lining it literally just stays there, building up (for years!!!) It is really isn't healthy at all. In fact, amenhorrea (absence of periods) that goes untreated can lead to cancer and osteoporosis. Now, mine had been treated (a period had been induced by the birth control pill, monthly, from a young age) however, there are years and months where there was no period..and having one induced every so often only clears that months lining..not the build up! Now, I had never really thought of that before. A key ingredient to pregnancy is having a healthy uterus where an embryo will implant. I was missing that key ingredient this whole time. (Sorry for all this intense information...it's all part of the journey though...not trying to 'over-share'). Anyways...after finding out I needed this surgery and talking to ladies I know who have PCOS..it turns out that a lot of ladies with PCOS have a D&C as one of the first steps to improving their fertility....and here I am...doing IVF..what was described as a last ditch attempt to get pregnant....pretty much a final step...and I had never even heard of a D&C. Why did I not have this sooner?? Well, who knows?! I didn't..and here we are. So knowing I needed this surgery was one thing...having it done was another. You think it'd be easy. It's a 5-10 minute procedure..should be easy enough to have it done in Grande Prairie, right? WRONG! Apparently it is not that easy. So, off to Victoria we went to have this D&C performed. It went well and now all looks good. It also feels good knowing that several people I'm close with have become pregnant after their own D&C's. So with that out of the way, we will be going back to Victoria July 19 (god willing of course) and that will hopefully be the last time we have to go back. I still have to have an ultrasound and blood work done to make sure everything is on track. Of course, I was determined this time to not force anything into my own timeline or rush anything. I just wanted to let it happen. God can organize it. The doctor asked me when I wanted to try again and my response was "you let me know when you think is a good time". He chose July 19. He said I needed a D&C (which I was terrified wasn't going to happen because we had to find a way to get to Victoria...all these trips are expensive!)..but that happened and it went well. Once again, the Lord is leading the way..and I am relinquishing all control to him. I want to know that I am doing it on HIS terms..not my own. Last time I decided it had to be on a certain day and I knew I was pushing my luck (doctor hudson even said that it would be cutting it close :S )...and that is not letting go and letting God take over. I'm not blaming myself. I know if it was meant to be I'd be pregnant right now. But...I also know that I have taken every step I could possibly take...each one directed by God...and it has brought me to this point. If July 19 is the day...then July 19th is the day. Was it the day I had in mind..no...does that matter...no. My plans never seem to be the best plans...but the Lord...well His definitely are.
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Those words give me so much hope. I know the Lord has a plan. If I can just get out of his way and let the plan unfold things would be a lot better..of that I am sure. Now maybe this sounds ridiculous to some of you, and that's fine..you are entitled to that opinion...but I truly believe Gods plans for us are good plans and that we will begin to see them unfold as soon as we put aside our own agendas, and submit to His because they are so much greater, so much more perfect than anything we could conceive in our own mind. So many of us are guilty of believing in Lord and his plans...but then butting in with our own agendas! We need to forget our agenda and just sit back and enjoy the ride. Everything will work out as it is intended to if we trust in the Lord and His plans and timing.
So I guess the lesson I have learned through all of this is to truly give it all to the Lord. He is greater than anyone or anything we can imagine.
1 Corinthians 2:9
"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him"!
If we can just...as the old saying goes...."let go and let god"...I am 100% convinced that our lives would be 100% better than we could ever imagine. So the lessons have been to not give up, stay true to yourself and keep your faith strong, believe in the word of the Lord and know that He should ALWAYS be in control! Trust in Him always and in all ways trust Him!
Again...here I go rambling on and on. Hopefully that made at least some sense.
Continue to keep us in your prayers! We are staying positive and trusting the Lord through this whole process!
Love you all and God Bless,
Jen
So it has been over a month since my last post came bearing the terrible news. You may be wondering what's going on with us as of lately.
Well, I said we weren't going to give up...and I meant it!!!
After our unfortunate news Dr. Hudson recommended taking at least a month off to let my body recover. He also recommended I have what is known as a D & C performed. That stands for Dilation and Curettage. For those of you who do not know what a D & C is, it is a surgical procedure in which the doctor dilates the cervix and, using an instrument known as a curette, scrapes the lining of the uterus and removes tissue. It is a procedure that is usually done after miscarriages, but the real reason I had to have this done is because of my PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome). You see because of my PCOS I do not get periods. With no period comes a build up of the uterine lining. If you don't have a period to remove that lining it literally just stays there, building up (for years!!!) It is really isn't healthy at all. In fact, amenhorrea (absence of periods) that goes untreated can lead to cancer and osteoporosis. Now, mine had been treated (a period had been induced by the birth control pill, monthly, from a young age) however, there are years and months where there was no period..and having one induced every so often only clears that months lining..not the build up! Now, I had never really thought of that before. A key ingredient to pregnancy is having a healthy uterus where an embryo will implant. I was missing that key ingredient this whole time. (Sorry for all this intense information...it's all part of the journey though...not trying to 'over-share'). Anyways...after finding out I needed this surgery and talking to ladies I know who have PCOS..it turns out that a lot of ladies with PCOS have a D&C as one of the first steps to improving their fertility....and here I am...doing IVF..what was described as a last ditch attempt to get pregnant....pretty much a final step...and I had never even heard of a D&C. Why did I not have this sooner?? Well, who knows?! I didn't..and here we are. So knowing I needed this surgery was one thing...having it done was another. You think it'd be easy. It's a 5-10 minute procedure..should be easy enough to have it done in Grande Prairie, right? WRONG! Apparently it is not that easy. So, off to Victoria we went to have this D&C performed. It went well and now all looks good. It also feels good knowing that several people I'm close with have become pregnant after their own D&C's. So with that out of the way, we will be going back to Victoria July 19 (god willing of course) and that will hopefully be the last time we have to go back. I still have to have an ultrasound and blood work done to make sure everything is on track. Of course, I was determined this time to not force anything into my own timeline or rush anything. I just wanted to let it happen. God can organize it. The doctor asked me when I wanted to try again and my response was "you let me know when you think is a good time". He chose July 19. He said I needed a D&C (which I was terrified wasn't going to happen because we had to find a way to get to Victoria...all these trips are expensive!)..but that happened and it went well. Once again, the Lord is leading the way..and I am relinquishing all control to him. I want to know that I am doing it on HIS terms..not my own. Last time I decided it had to be on a certain day and I knew I was pushing my luck (doctor hudson even said that it would be cutting it close :S )...and that is not letting go and letting God take over. I'm not blaming myself. I know if it was meant to be I'd be pregnant right now. But...I also know that I have taken every step I could possibly take...each one directed by God...and it has brought me to this point. If July 19 is the day...then July 19th is the day. Was it the day I had in mind..no...does that matter...no. My plans never seem to be the best plans...but the Lord...well His definitely are.
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Those words give me so much hope. I know the Lord has a plan. If I can just get out of his way and let the plan unfold things would be a lot better..of that I am sure. Now maybe this sounds ridiculous to some of you, and that's fine..you are entitled to that opinion...but I truly believe Gods plans for us are good plans and that we will begin to see them unfold as soon as we put aside our own agendas, and submit to His because they are so much greater, so much more perfect than anything we could conceive in our own mind. So many of us are guilty of believing in Lord and his plans...but then butting in with our own agendas! We need to forget our agenda and just sit back and enjoy the ride. Everything will work out as it is intended to if we trust in the Lord and His plans and timing.
So I guess the lesson I have learned through all of this is to truly give it all to the Lord. He is greater than anyone or anything we can imagine.
1 Corinthians 2:9
"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him"!
If we can just...as the old saying goes...."let go and let god"...I am 100% convinced that our lives would be 100% better than we could ever imagine. So the lessons have been to not give up, stay true to yourself and keep your faith strong, believe in the word of the Lord and know that He should ALWAYS be in control! Trust in Him always and in all ways trust Him!
Again...here I go rambling on and on. Hopefully that made at least some sense.
Continue to keep us in your prayers! We are staying positive and trusting the Lord through this whole process!
Love you all and God Bless,
Jen
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