A million little pieces...

Negative again. Utterly devastating heartbreak hardly comes close to describing how I feel. I feel like a completely defective human being. I feel shattered. I don't know how much more broken my heart can get. The hardest part is knowing there is no explanation of why and that we won't have the ability to try again for a very long time. I don't know why we have to endure this, but I know there must be some reason bigger than I know...some grand plan. God is in control. I don't know what to do or say. It's hard enough to breathe at this moment, let alone anything else. I knew today would either be the best day or worst day of my life. It is definitely the worst. God give me strength to overcome this and move forward. Keep us in your prayers.
Jen

Sitting, waiting, wishing...

So, transfer was done almost 2 weeks ago and the pregnancy test is tomorrow. Dr. Hudson said everything went as good as it possibly could....nothing could've been better. I have a lot of confidence that things are going to work out this time, but with my pregnancy test tomorrow, I can't help but feel a bit of fear..because of the disappointment and heartache I went through last time. It does feel different this time, but I am guarding my heart out of fear. Please pray for me now, and throughout the day tomorrow. It is going to be a long and agonizing wait for the results. I am trusting in the lord and the answered prayers so far (lining, progesterone, estrogen..etc). I want these babies so bad and love them so much already. My hope is in you Lord, all the day long. Thanks for your prayers, love and support. I cherish them with all my heart. Here's hoping and believing I'll have good news to share soon

Love you all,

Jen

YAY!

Ok, so I'm pretty much ecstatic to say that we're finally going back to VICTORIA!!!!!! Ultrasound looks good, progesterone looks good...just waiting on the Estradiol results..but Dr. Hudson feels comfortable moving ahead knowing what he knows thus far =)
PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy. I was so worried that things might not work out, but, I have been praying and faithfully believing that if it was God's will, things would work out this time!
So, Wednesday we will leave for Victoria, embryo transfer Thursday, rest on Friday and home on Saturday.
Hallelujah! Thank you for your prayers!!
Praying for success this time <3
Continue to remember us as you feel lead!!

Love you all,

Jen